This morning, I learned that my friend Kayoko Ishizuka had passed away over the weekend. Kayoko, known affectionately, as “Kay” by her friends, had transferred to Virginia Tech my freshman year, and although we only spent one year together at the university, I can recall many fond memories with her. She had since gone on to pursue a doctorate degree at the Medical College of Wisconsin and was a postdoctoral student at USF College of Medicine. We had lost touch for years, but had recently reconnected on Facebook a few months ago. Kayo was one of the most brilliant people I’ve ever known, and I’ve always been certain that she was going to accomplish great things for not only herself but also for the world of science, for which she was so passionate.
Kayo was bicycling home from another late night of research at the USF laboratory in Tampa, when she fell victim to a fatal hit-and-run accident at 1:40am Saturday morning. The SUV that hit her was discovered abandoned over the weekend, but the driver is yet to be found and arrested. Kayo’s name was not made public until this morning, when one of our mutual friends who is now interning at USF happened to see her on the local morning news.
I found myself struggling to get a grasp on the whole tragedy today… and have been confronted with a host of emotions — of course, the sadness and heartbreak over Kayo’s death, as well as anger towards the hit-and-run driver — but initially, more than anything, I was stunned at how such a bright mind and spirit could be so quickly snuffed out from this world. I’ve faced a number of situations before in my life where I’ve lost loved ones suddenly and unexpectedly, but every time, it’s a shock that takes weeks and months to come to terms with. Every time, the pain and grief is fresh, raw, and leaves me feeling irreparable and helpless. Every time, I’m confronted by and reminded of the brevity of life, and I still have trouble accepting it.
For now, I want to celebrate Kayo’s life and all the ways she touched people’s lives, including my own. I want to remember her for her brilliant mind, her love of food and cooking, and her quirky, offbeat sense of humor. Reading her blog and her Twitter shows her colorful personality, her appetite for life, and her love of tinkering with and riding bicycles. In the end, I want to remember her for everything that made her uniquely her and how much of a gift it was to have her in our lives, rather than how she was taken away from us.
I will miss you Kayo…
Danjo
September 28, 2010 @ 12:15 am
Really sorry to hear about your loss Misono, very tragic….
Misono
September 29, 2010 @ 7:33 pm
Thank you for the condolences. She really touched a lot of people!
S.H
September 28, 2010 @ 1:22 am
beautifully written, misono. sorry for the loss. agree with how one can be gone so abruptly, but its great friends like you that make her lost life so memorable.
Misono
September 29, 2010 @ 7:33 pm
Thank you – it’s up to those of us who are left here on earth to remember those lost. Her life may have been short but she accomplished so much and made so many people happy. 🙂
Miki
September 28, 2010 @ 6:16 am
sorry to hear about such a tragic accident 🙁
Misono
September 29, 2010 @ 7:33 pm
Thanks Miki. It’s always a shock to hear about someone’s passing, especially this young.
ROMI
September 28, 2010 @ 7:21 am
MISONO
Thank you for writing about Kay in such beautiful way. I’ve always admired your talent for writing. I still have trouble understanding how some one as smart and nice and just close to us can be gone…..I looked up Kaoru and emailed her, and talked to Kiho on the phone for a bit. Let me know if you need anything alright?
Hokies Unite!!
Love,
ROMI
Misono
September 29, 2010 @ 7:40 pm
Thank you for your comment, Romi!
It’s really hard to believe that Kayo is gone – her personality was larger than life, and she touched so many people and I just know that she would’ve made some huge breakthroughs with her cancer research for the world of science.
Thank you for getting in touch with Kaoru and emailing her about Kayo. I know that she would’ve wanted to know, too, since they were close.
Thanks so much for being so supportive over the past couple of days….
Nori
September 28, 2010 @ 7:21 am
Hi Misono chan,
Read your whole blog on Kay san.
Im terribly sorry for your loss. Pls know that ã¿ãã®ã¡ã‚ƒã‚“ã®æ°—æŒã¡ãŒæœ¬å½“ã«ã‚ˆã分ã‹ã‚‹ã—, I feel ur pain too.
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Pls stay genki. I know its hard but…心é…ã—ã¦ã‚‹ã‹ã‚‰ã€‚Well I guess å¿ƒé… is not the right word …grrr Im concerned dakara pls stay genki
Misono
September 29, 2010 @ 7:33 pm
Thank you for your thoughtful comment. I know you’ve had your share of losses the past couple years as well. It’s never something you’ll get used to. I will be okay, but I really hope they find the driver who did this.
Ann Helen
September 28, 2010 @ 9:39 pm
I’m so sorry to hear about that, Misono! How sad… 🙁
Misono
September 29, 2010 @ 7:41 pm
Thank you for your condolences. ♥
Hope to see you again soon.
theskyiscrying via Livejournal
September 29, 2010 @ 11:54 am
I’m really sorry for your loss, Misono 🙁 May Kayoko rest in peace.
Misono
October 8, 2010 @ 12:02 pm
Thanks Mari.
Her passing was devastating for a lot of people and it’s be amplified by the fact that that there still has been no arrest. 🙁
bestest
September 30, 2010 @ 9:18 pm
what?? is this same Kay, whom i had classes with in college??
Misono
September 30, 2010 @ 11:28 pm
Yes, it’s the one you took classes with and taught you “maji de?â€